Month Seven Finale!

Well, month number seven is finally over! Thank goodness! I am so glad to be in my Christmas break! Yesterday was incredibly maddening. I can't believe that a whole room full of supposed adults can bicker and fight like third graders. In fact, it was so bad that the instructor stopped the review for the final (we were playing Family Feud) and left the room! Lordy, lordy! I am stunned! and sooooo angry! Then to top it off, I did horrible, the worst I have ever done on my final! I still have an A in the class, but I am really, really irritated.

I almost want to sit out a month and go back with my original class. I hope that the next eight months will be tolerable. To top it off, the holdiays and here and my financial situation is not good. I can't handle any more stress, I feel a breakdown coming on soon. I am going away for spring break and I am ready for the trip. Thanks to the generosity of a family member.

I don't even want to go into the problems with the in law situation. I am tired of doing the right thing and having to take it up the whazoooo! Maybe, I need to be bad. Nasty, even mean! Did I mention before I went on the anti depressants, I loved being mean? Well, believe it or not, I did.

Enough! It's all about the attitude! Right? I can do it, I will do it!!!!! Tawanda!!!!!!!!!!!

Week Three Month Seven

Today, we finished up our last official clinical day of Fundies III. I really did enjoy fundies this year. I am becoming so much more confident with my skills. I barely shake and shiver while being watched. Today, I was given leadership responsibilities and was rewarded quite nicely by my instructor. (with kind words on my eval)

Tomorrow is my last quiz for the month and then on Monday my last exam. I can't believe this month has flown by so quickly. I think I just need to sit down and take a few deep breaths and try to remember all that has been crammed into my brain these past seven months. Soooo much information. Maybe it is overload, I don't know. Tuesday is our final exam. Then it is Christmas break. Wooooo Hoooooo!

Next month I am moving on to 12 hour clinicals and two class days per week. I will have to really use my two days for study, research and everything else that has to be done. You know like, laundry, cooking, cleaning. . . Jeez! I don't know how the younger ones with children, a job and spouse or significant other keeps this pace. Maybe it helps that they are younger! I don't think I am doing too bad keeping up with the young ones academically though!! I am carrying an A right now. I hope I can keep it!

Until next time, keep the books open and the information in!

Why am I so Pissed off?

I have asked myself this question many times. If you read my blog you know this. I shouldn't care when people don't show up for class, come in late, leave early, what ever! I guess it makes me feel like school is not a priority. Well, it is for me. I have to have this education to make adifference in the lives of those who I will come in contact with, but mostly for me. I want to do more than lend a listening ear. I want to make a difference! I think it pisses me off too, because I am paying for their education in a round about way and can't afford to make my payments! This year should be different though. I should be able to receive some Pel grants. I feel like I am in a pressure cooker all the time. I know I am not the only student that feels that way, but. . . .In fact one of my classmates has tons more to worry about than I do. Prayers go out to ya, babe!!

I love the holidays and I am looking forward to Christmas break. I plan to spend alot of time with the grandbabies. They are my life. I want them to be proud of their old grandma for going back to school to make a difference. I love nursing. I even have suprised myself, I can do the nursing home thing. It is hard, but when I see the difference I can make in a resident's life, it makes me feel all kinds of good. I made stupid mistakes on my exam today, that just shows you what having a crappy attitude can do. I did good, but not my usual standard. I guess it is time to pick my self up by the boot straps and shake it off. No more Drama!!!

That's my new thing, NMD!!! No More Drama!!!!!!

Ho Hum!

School is going well. I love school. However, I get so irritated at those who don't seem to take it very seriously. I ask myself, why does this bother me? I guess it is because, I am paying for their education and can't afford to pay for mine. My tax dollars at work!

I made some stupid mistakes on my exam today. I still did well, but that is beside the point. I just was in an "I don't want to mess with anything mood" today and it showed on my exam. I am sooooooo pissed off and I am not sure exactly why or if it really has anything to do with school. Maybe it is because it is the holidays, which I love, love love! I know it is not about the gifts, but the giving, but I like to be the giver, not the givee!

I just have to be so incredibily thankful for still being able to be in class. The next three months are going to be the same: 12 hour clinicals on Monday's, then class on Wednesday's and Friday's. It is good to know the schedule and where I will be for clinicals at least in January. I am a little apprehensive about going to a new place. Plus, I will have to drive about 45 mins each way and winter in Indiana can pretty awful! That pretty much makes a 13-14 hour day. Whew!!! I guess that is just what is going to be like "In the Real World"! Classmates, you know what I mean!!!! lol

Busy week, lots to learn, lots to do, lots to study! It is trach week!!!! WoooooHoooooooo!!!!!!!

OWTH!!!!!!!!!!!

I got it!!!!!!!!!! I sat down to study for my quiz tomorrow and it has math on it. Ugh!!! I knew that this would be my downfall quiz. I was devestated. I braved the Dosage Calculation Text and gave it a whirl! I did it!!! Out of 20 problems that I tried, I got 19 right! I am afraid to try more for fear the knowledge I though I gained was just a fluke! Tremble, tremble.

Clinicals were good today. I did my physical assesement and felt way more confident and I think, I actually did it in 10 minutes, okay, maybe 15 but wooooo hooooooo! I am getting really nervous about moving on to the final months of my education. Will I be able to to do it? Can I handle a 12 hour clinical? These are questions that I am comtemplating. It's the holidays and I have not put up one Christmas Decoration, let alone the tree. I just can't think about anything else, except school, a 4.0 and not letting anyone down. I really can't stand to let anyone down. I actually was in tears yesterday thinking I had let Ms Tish down, by being late from lunch. I hate being late anyway and we had so much fun. A release I think we all needed. Any how and Any who, I did math!!! I didn't let it intimidate me. I hope I can keep this sense of I got it!!!!!!!

I just have to say it, I LOVE school!!!!!

What a Day!

My goodness! I have not laughed as hard as I laughed today in sooooo long! I really needed that lunch with fellow classmates, JJ, HC, AD, and S. Wow!!! When we got back, part of the lecture was how we need to take care of ourselves, relax, have fun! We were really ahead of that game, huh? There just may be a new career in my future. See one of the above classmates to see if they will tell you, because, it is my little secret! It might involve, oh, never mind!

We had skills check offs today! I am now qualified to not only, insert a nasogastric tube, feed you through it, medicate you through it, irrigate it, and take it out, but I can insert a Foley cathetor to releive, well you know what a Foley does! I will be the fully trained package in just a few short months! Dig me!

I was thinking though, why do I let little things bother me? Why should I care if someone does not come to class, or leaves early or what ever? It just does, maybe it is because I am an older student and I have more life experience than most of my classmates. We are supposed to be a cohesive (sp?) team (our class), but I just don't feel like I can trust several of my classmates. I don't see a whole lot of commitment. The majority, yes, I do and I have worked with most of them, but, will they really be there when I need them? This is just one of the questions I ask myself. It brings me to the old saying, "Actions speak louder than words, or Your actions speak volumes!"!!! I want to be known as the kind of person that people KNOW they can depend on, trust and that I am a person of my word.

While I am on the subject, please don't speak for me, if I have not given you permission to. It has come to my attention, that someone spoke for me regarding something, that I don't believe to be true. Therefore, this person spoke about my feelings falsely. I have been quite happy with my education and have not really had any serious problems that I have not addressed when necessary. I am a big girl, and I will handle my own problems and voice my own opinions! Thank you any way! Evidently, this is what the whole hoopla was about on Monday. And, by the way, I don't have any more time to waste on Drama. Please don't waste my time with it especially when I am in class!!! Thanks!

Still loving every minute of school! Clinicals tomorrow!!!! yea!!!!!!!!!!!! And, girls, thanks for the memories!!!!!

OWTH!!!!!!!!!!

Just for those of you that don't know, OWTH, means, OH, WHAT THE HECK!!! Today was a very strange day. No, not because it is Monday, duh! I was sitting in class, minding my own business when in walks someone, Tells me to tell the person behind me that Karma comes around. I was dumbfounded. OWTH! I said, "excuse me" they repeated it. I was floored. I had no idea what that was all about. The person behind me, of course was immediately pissed off. What a way to start a day!

We had our first exam today! I missed one. Dag nab it. I should have went with my gut. Why don't I ever listen to my gut? Well, I do, when it's glurbling! Any way, I enjoyed lecture today. We are discussing culture and religion. Subjects you probably really should not discuss, however, Ms Tish handled it well and I got on my soap box only a couple of times. I know, I was surprised too!

Can't wait to see what happens the rest of the week!

What a Refreshing Change!

Clinicals this month are like night and day! I had such an enjoyable knowledge filled day! I find myself anxious for next weeks clinical day!

Part of the great fun is driving to and home from clinicals with my classmate and friend, HC! She is so funny and I so enjoy spending time with her. She is smart and fun to be around! I haven't laughed so hard in so long! I was worried about needing to have the "Detrol Conversation" with my Dr!!!

Clinicals are at the same place this month as they have been the last two months. I like that! I can follow my patient's progress. I can actually see and understand how important labs are in following the patients progression on the meds. I really feel like it is beginning to put this together. I know I have a long road to go down yet, but I am excited to take the walk, or run, or following the yellow brick road to my final goal. I can feel the excitment starting to gurgle in my stomach, oh wait, that must be the vegetable soup I had for dinner! :0) I am excited to continue down the pathway to my goal.

Soooo much to learn, do study for. My eyes are giving out and I still have three more drugs to list on my care plan and study for the quiz tomorrow. I don't think I am going to make it. I have put three hours on the care plan already. I guess I will just hit the sack early and get up a couple hours earlier and get done what has to be done!!! What ever it takes, what ever the cost, I CAN do this and I WILL!!!

Month Seven or Fundies III

Yea!!!!!!! Someone loves me! I am now in Fundies III and so far loving every minute! Today, was awesome! I got to put in a nasogastric tube! It was so cool, even if it was only on a dummy named Rue Paul! (that is a story I will have to tell you in person!) Believe me, it's funny!

Tomorrow is our first clinical day for Fundies III. I have met our instructor and she is a hoot! I can't wait to work with her and learn from her! I heard through the grapevine, she is a military nurse! I bet she has stories to tell!!! I'd love to hear 'em!

Our theory instructor is great! I really like her! So far on my first quiz, I got a 100%. What a way to start the month. Woooooooo Hooooooo! We will have two quizes a week, Wednesday and Fridays, and then an exam on Monday! This is going to be another short month due to the Christmas Holiday. Then we have Christmas Break. I am looking forward to that, however, I really didn't know what to do with myself when I was off four days in a row! That's a shame, huh? Half of our class will go to Clinicals in Elkhart and the other in Plymouth. Those going to Plymouth will be with our Theory instructor.

I'm still here, still having a ball and loving every minute of every day!