Well, it happened and my instructor won. Just this first round though. I took my first test of the month yesterday and it blew me away!! I knew it was going to be an issue when I stuttered on the very first questions. Oh my goodness! Now don't get me wrong, I didn't flunk, in fact, I did pass, however, way below my normal standard of test passing! Let's just say at this very moment, I am tittering on a very fine line between an A and a B. Gasp!
I can understand my instructor's point of view. She wants us to concentrate on the information and learn it and not be so focused on the grade. Well, I have to tell you, I have been physically
nauseous since I saw my grade. She told me last month when she was my clinical instructor that she was going to break my GPA wide open. I didn't think I let her get to me, but obviously I did. I am not the only one in my class to have been slapped in the face with our instructors philosophy. I respect her and I know that I am going to learn mega information from her, also, since she will be my instructor next month, I will have her number as well. I will show her and myself that I can do this and do it well!
On a happier note, my interview at a local hospital went very well last week. They told me that hiring is a very
lengthy process and I know that to be a fact. However, it still doesn't take care of the anxious feeling that I have in the very pit of my stomach. I really need this job, but so many
questions are brought to the surface. Can I do work and school? I guess it will be a YOU HAVE TO DO WORK AND SCHOOL in my present situation.
I have to stop blogging now and hit the books, there is a test tomorrow! Ugh!!!!